Lady in red.

For formal occasions, I would always go for safe solid dark colors. But when I saw the cut and color of this dress at Mango, I just could not resist buying it though it was, indeed shocking solid RED.

On a day at work plus, I would need to look formal for important guests coming over, I decided to wear it. You can actually wear it anytime of the day depending on how you accessorize it -- that's the nice thing about this dress :)

So what do you think about my look?

Dress- Mango; Belt-thrifted

Til next!

Ciao bellas,
Alex

Wedding Bells

A little something out of my overflowing thoughts. :)



Wedding bells
by Alex Valenciano


A few more days,
He's walking down the isle
Patiently waiting in front
for the steps of his bride


I've been in this scene
over and over in my dreams
and I wouldn't say its the best thing for me
But this is how its meant to be


People can say I'm a hypocrite
for saying I've been ready for it
But he's been a good guy
And the last thing I want to do is lie
With all my heart and soul,
I wish for his happiness and for my own


The hurting part is over
His promises soon to be uncovered
And before he says I do
I want to thank him too


For the happy memories of yesterday
For things we weren't able to say
For the love shared
And for the thoughts and care


Maybe on my special day
As I wear white and make my way
You'd also be there with a smile on your face
Beside the woman who met your gaze


This does not mark the end
Of a friendship that deserves to be mend.
I might see you on one of those events,
so 'til then my all time favorite friend.

Stay strong.

Stay strong

While reading fashion posts of my all-time favorite blogger, I came across what seems to me a "sign". She had one post entitled "Stay Strong".

Being strong is a bit easy. But the staying part is hard. When you go through so much pain, there are times you just want to give it up and surrender. Literally, you don't need

a white flag waived out to the world. But for you to just give up, is the most meaningless attack for me. It's a battlefield I tell you and to conquer the war is to just keep on

fighting.

I know, it's easier said than done. And I'm at that part now. I couldn't make or compose a decent entry now really. All I've been doing for the past few days is listen to my

"Stay Strong" playlist.

So might as well just share it with all of you :)

1. I won't give up - Jason Mraz
2. Don't know why - Norah Jones
3. Am I ready for Love? - Taylor Swift
4. If I believed - Patti Austin
5. Begin Again - Colbie Caillat
6. Through the fire - Chaka Khan
7. Chasing Pavements - Adele
8. Crawl - Chris Brown
9. Change your mind - Boyce Avenue
10. Di na natuto - Noel Cabangon
11. For your love - Charlie Wilson
12. Forgiveness - Wamdue project
13. How to love - Lil Wayne
14. I wanna Know - Joe
15. Near to you - A fine Frenzy
16. Smile - Uncle Kracker
17. Tell me where it hurts - MYMP
18. Terrified - Katherine McPhee
19. Issues - Saturdays
20. We found love - Rihanna
21. Who do you tell - Tamia
22. Wonderwall - Oasis
23. You don't know me - Jann Arden
24. You give me something - James Morrison
25. Ready to love again - Lady Antebellum

If you're good at solving puzzles, then you might just get to reveal my heart's secret.

Ciao Bellas,
Alex

Of love and such part II.

Due to public demand and violent reactions from concerned citizens, in short, dahil umani ng tagumpay ang unang entry ko sa mga CHISMOSO't CHISMOSA kong friends, I shall do a PART II!!! :)

I wasn't able to mention pala a few more :) so sorry nemeeennnn :P

So okay, how do I start??? Well, let's just say, in between there, somewhere. Hmm, i really couldn't remember the exact dates! That's too challenging for me already! So here goes: (DISCLAIMER: Not in any order- haha)

TELETUBBIES:

The "title" was not originally from me but from a good friend of mine who I choose not to name. :P I decided to keep it as it is because for one, my thoughts of him would still somewhat relate to how I remember teletubbies. Back when I was a kid, I was really fond of the teletubbies. Not just because they sing those weird songs but because whenever I watch them, they make me think that the world was such a care-free place. In fairness to this guy, he's that type of guy. No pressure, no promises. Just pure crazy laughing moments together. He's the typical laid-back type of guy who'd actually make fun of me in a very sweet way. He makes me feel HUMAN -- that's the term! Yes, you can now call me stupid for not taking the leap. Again, sorry, but I had to admit this. hahaha! I was still enjoying my singlehood PLUS there we're just too many choices.

DRUNKEN DJ
I shall consider this as part of my growing up stage. You go out, you dance through the night and you get to shake a lot of hands. That's what I usually do when clubbing. Plus the free drinks of course! One night, actually it was the exclusive club party I held to celebrate my bday, I met the club's DJ. He's nothing out of the ordinary for me but my friends, due to the fact that I was single, they we're excited to get me back to dating and I was the birthday girl, they INSISTED on the exchange of numbers. A few texts the day after then again, Alex went "KOOKOO" (my term for my mood swings), the END.Though he was sweet, he was irrisistably cute, it wasn't about all that after all :)

RACER
I get giddy with cute cars! So what is cute for me? pink? flower? and all girly? Nope! Wrong! :) I like cars that looks as manly as it can be!!! and I drool over those kinds of cars. So one carshow, because my friend Charm was so kind enough to tolerate my craziness, she made ways. She contacted her good friend that is laso into car deatiling and stuff like that, asked him if he could date me and take us to that playboy carshow. please dont judge us. We we're young and wild and free. So going back, I had a date on this car show where I will also meet one guy I like. hahaha! AGain, don't judge us, we just know how to play our cards right. Two dates after, I just disappeared. And because he was also a good friend of my friend, she had to do something because she felt she was the one to blame. So she introduced him to two more friends of ours who again, did the same thing to him. Well, he was a nice guy but he just wouldn't know where to draw the line.

I guess that's about it. To my friends, if you think I still missed some, let me know! hahahaha!

What again am I pointing through this post? Number 1, if I did hurt you, if you are one of these boys I've mentioned or if you are the girl who's with any of the boys mentioned, i am, with all my heart and soul, so sorry. A part of my growing up was spent on this to be honest. Trying to figure out what I really want to do, who I want to be and who I want to be with. So until my next post!

Ciao Bellas,
Alex 

DECISIONS

To be honest, I'm such a chicken. I chicken out on most of things. Specially on BOLD decisions which I think at my age, I should be capable of already. And since I have that much time now, let me show my "8 things I'd rather die than be caught doing":

1. I've never really tested myself with the "INDEPENDENCE" that I've been claiming to have.
I'm pretty scared. Specially with moving out. It scares the shit out of me. Well, it's not because I can't take care of the house because I just know I can! Because I'm the "I can keep things the same EXACT way even if I use it" type of person. Growing up with my dad kind of training. I know how to do household chores (yes, I know!). Taking care is easy but MANAGING it is a whole new story. I'm kind of scared with the BIGGER responsibility of household bills, food budgeting. Things like that.

2. I don't usually do UNPLANNED or UNEXPECTED things.
Ever since I got my heart broken (wait, when was that? LOL), yes, again, ever since I got my heart broken, I've been living like a robot. I have been doing nothing but build this certain wall so that I could avoid the feeling of getting hurt. In my case, controlling everything was my escape. Every little detail had to be planned and I tend to over think things a lot. Who could blame me? after several heartbreaks, I couldn't really trust anyone even myself on the decisions I make. I was over protective of my heart that no one could ever see right through it. I live by MILLIONs of post-its, to-do lists posted on my walls. If you see a space full of post-its with reminders, that's my TURF! haha! I have several planners where my schedule is usually plotted. And if you we're a kidnapper thinking of kidnapping me, you'd probably have an easy time finding me. To top it all, due to my kookoo moves of being too controlling, I even put reminders on my phone. I turn down unexpected invitations or I get pissed when there's a sudden change of plan.

3. I don't like constant texting or calling.
It suffocates me. It feels like being tracked or something for me. I don't like sending mushy "i miss you's" to anyone in the world! Well, I used to. But again, I have been building a wall that made my heart stay on an ICE BOX and the SWEETNESS i once had is just... A mere memory of how I used to be.

4. I hate being SLEEP DEPRIVED.
Call me a POLAR bear but I literraly like sleeping like a BABY. I need to get sleep atleast 12 hrs a day. 10hrs would mean I needed to get up early. and8 hrs would mean I'm sleep deprived and 6 hrs would mean SUICIDE already. I love sleeping. I hate people who manage to disturb my sleep through calls and sms.

5. I don't do breakfast
Breakky is the most important meal of the day they say. I don't believe in that. Again, due to my sleep addiction, I'd rather sleep than do breakfast. An extra hour of sleep would feel so much better than a full tummy for me. hahaha!

6. I can't drink coffee
At a young age, I have been taking care of my baby gastritis. As early as highschool, I've been taking medications for my gastritis attacks. Well, I grew up keeping up with the prescribed medicines and practices. And that includes COFFEE. And yet again, because I live practically on PLANNED things, I have given up coffee because it's one of my reminders, my post-its.

7. I don't laugh alone while reading messages/tweets.
Generally speaking, I don't like being crazy or do random crazy things in front of people. I am that kind of person.

8. I don't like being tagged on facebook pictures/check-ins
Well this one's funny. When Facebook was a bit more fun and I was kinda pro-actively updating mine, I don't like being tagged on pictures (there was still no check-in's then!) My friends know this that yes I would agree to having my pictures taken but tagging me, would be a major sin for me. Here's my CONFESSION: sorry for those who had their pictures taken with me but for some odd reason, it got burried somewhere in my history. haha! I don't like being tagged because, I kinda think that when you're tagged on a picture with someone, it goes without saying that you've just been tagged HIS already. And I don't like that. Again, who would blame me? I was young and wild and free :) same goes with check-ins, if people sees who you're with, then they'd make wild guesses and rumors and I, again, wanted to avoid that.

So what am I going to do with this list? Yes I know, I've kept it for years!!! So let me put you on a positive note.

Lucky me, I met good people in my life who have surprisingly crossed out every bit of detail here on my list. And the good part is, I might be down to just one or two left. I've said this before I know but I've changed a lot since they've become my friends. And NOW, here's my take on that list.

1. I'm not ready to test the "INDEPENDENCE" that I've been claiming to have.
And NOW I am ALMOST excited to move out not because I am ready but because I know I CAN take on anything now. Watching all my friends being independent makes me feel like I can do it too. And the fear which haunts me a lot has changed. Maybe I'm ALMOST ready, but not quite yet.

2. I don't usually do UNPLANNED or UNEXPECTED things.
My crew? (eww! so swagger!) haha! They're all about unexpected things! Although there are times that out of town trips are planned, most of the things that happen DURING the trip is crazier! The good thing though is, after being too doubtful, I've learned to accept the fact that unexpecting is indeed one of the most fulfilling moment. I learned to embrace the thought of not having any assurance but still decide to wait. I learned that life is so much more fun when I don't over think things. They literally taught me to LIVE and BREATHE.

3. I don't like constant texting or calling.
Like what I said, I used to like that. And now I'm back to being that sweet! That's how they've been for me. Before, I wouldn't notice how sweet we are to each other. Checking on each other thru texts or still keeping contact despite our busy schedules. We call each other whenever there's something CRAZY happened. And you know what? Whenever something great happens to me, I text or call anyone of my friends. Because I know that I'd find in them the feeling of satisfaction that I shared my joys with them.

4. I don't want being SLEEP DEPRIVED.
Now I can sleep for just two hours and won't get grumpy about it. Sometimes, I am just running on caffeine. It's not that I hate sleep now, it's just that I know it's more FUN to stay up late and be with them rather than being in my dreams. Now, my reality is better than my dreams.

5. I don't do breakfast
Breakky went in my system somewhere along the way. hahaha! Despite the fact that me and my friends drink a lot, we don't skip meals. That's why I guess, my gastritis hasn't been showing up. Except when I abuse his patience though. hahaha! Now I can't pass on breakfast. It makes me grumpy! LOL

6. I can't drink coffee
My friends are coffee drinkers. They are inlove with coffee more than I am. That was BEFORE I started drinking coffee again. Now my coffee is, the more bitter it is the better. I've learned to skip the CREAMERs because I kinda think dairy makes my tummy unhappy a few hours after taking it into my system.

7. I don't laught alone while reading messages/tweets.
I am crazy because I hang out with crazy people. hahaha! And they can make me laugh hard even with just an SMS or tweet. Could you imagine how it is when we are together? Expect laughters and more laughters til we get tired of laughing.

8. I don't like being tagged on facebook pictures/check-ins
Now my facebook is full of tagged photos and check-ins. Sometimes, I even do the tagging myself. Maybe it's because the control freak in me learned that whatever I do or whoever I choose to be with now, NOBODY has the right to make a fuss out of it. That's one of the many perks of being SINGLE so people, DEAL with it. hahaha. And I have made a secret pact with myself that I ain't posing and have my picture taken beside someone I'm not sure of what I'm feeling anymore. EHEM! :)



There goes my list. Told you, ALMOST done with it. Soon, it would be useless already. But it's good to sometimes do a self-check and this list would be of great help.

Here's my take on this: life is a gift and HOW TO LIVE is a matter of choice. Whatever it is that you do or did, whoever you're with, wherever you are is a result of the choices you make or have made. For several years I've lived according to post-its, schedulers, planners and phone reminders. It's not that I regret it because at some point it helped me a lot with the coping. But you can't stay where you were before just because you got your heart broken or you lost someone dear to you. What am I getting at? The decisions we make makes us who we are now. Those decisions gives you either satisfaction, happiness or a sense of security.

My decisions aren't perfect. But I've learned that whatever you desire, you go follow it. Because in the end, it would still be the same YOU. Just with a bit of damage here and there maybe but still you. Don't live by what-if's. Because you can't change the world or how it treats you, but you can definitely change how you live in it with your decisions.

Make bolder, wiser ones and if it fails, charge it to experience and learn from it. Heal. Then try again. I'm not saying it's as easy as 1-2-3 but it's a whole lot easier than living a life full of regrets because of decisions not made. :)

'Til next.

Ciao Bellas,
Alex

Sheer me up! :)

It's been so long since i last dis an outfit post. And my phone is close to collapsing or sudden death because of the outfit shots i have. Kidding! Good thing though is i get to share it on instagram :)

So on an ordinary mall day, i decided to wear sheer on sheer. It was crazy outside, knowing how humid Manila is. But of course, being the traditional Filipina somehow, I tried to look as covered as possible despite the unbearable heat. How to look breezy but comfy? My newest favorite trend: SHEER clothing :) So... Tada!!! :)

How do you like my look?!

Ciao Bellas,
Alex

My utmost cry.

I was kinda hoping that after posting my "of love and such" entry, for once, things would just fall into places and stop. But hell no, you just wouldn't stop blabbing. I kinda understand though where you're coming from. And you just wouldn't make it easy for me. It was hell hard for you right? I know!!!!!!!! I think everyone KNOWS already because you just wont shut up will you? 


For the last time, I'll waste my precious time on you. Not because i want to but because i think I already HAVE to. Things are just getting out of hand and I DESERVE TO SAY MY PIECE! I've already told you this so many effin' times and now, since you just won't stop, it's for public consumption already.


I don't even know why i'm a bit concerned about you when you're just sooooo damn insensitive of how I felt and feeling!!!!! In my effort to avoid causing you any more pain, my silence wasn't ENOUGH for you to have the DECENCY of just wrapping up your thoughts inside your head and letting it just DIE there! 


I'm human. I have feelings too and just like any human, I commit mistakes. I do crazy things then change my mind after. So if that's what hurts you, that I changed my mind one morning, THEN FINE! i'm guilty! But don't you think this is just getting a little old on you? It's been what???? And you, dragging me, over and over again is just so UNFAIR already. Yes it is! I know cause I was once hurt too. What we're you thinking all these time??? I won't know how you back stab me? It'll be just a secret? Well then meet the REAL WORLD! I have been keeping up with all the hearsays and rumors that you've been spreading. I kept mum about it but PLEASE! for the love of God, just stop it already!


Stop pretending like you'll never intentionally hurt me or do something that would make me feel upset because honestly, it's EXCRUCIATING already!!!!! Do you even know how hard it is for me to keep silent whenever I hear that you talk about someone who gets involved with me??? What's that about??? Are you pretty sure about that? Do you really want me to go down that road again? Cause if that's what it takes to make you stop, I'm more than willing to. Game face on even!


Your "friends", do they even know me??? or they just know me from YOUR stories??? I understand they are YOUR friends. They would side on you. But I hope you'd also UNDERSTAND when my friends do that to you.


For everyone who has something to say about what happened, here's my take on that:


1. Yes, I was madly inlove with someone else.
2. I realized along the way that what I had at that time was NOWHERE near what I had before him
3. I bet my life you we're once in my situation. So let me ask you this, if you committed the same mistake that I did, would you choose not to hurt him, prolong the pretentions then eventually leave him? Or would you rather hurt him by telling the truth, have him hate you, curse you, but atleast let him be free so he could find someone much deserving of his love?


you know, sometimes, when someone says "It's not you, it's me", try to accept and understand that there is an OUNCE truth in it. It was not just an excuse.


And for the record, just so everyone knows, YES I HAVE PLANS OF GETTING MARRIED but definitely not with someone like him. You are one selfish, backstabbing and insensitive guy I've ever met!


This is NOT me being mad or holding grudges against you. This is a CRY of a girl who, for just once, wants to be heard. I admit that I hurt you. I already apologized for that so many freaking times! But do you really have to keep on doing this just to get even with me? When are you ever gonna stop?? PLEASE TELL ME!


So how does this feel? every single one of the people that I know, reading this! Learning how much of a backstabber you are! How does it feel to be HUMILIATED on a public website?


You're not the only one who gets HURT. You know exactly what you have done to me and my friends. I owe you a heartbreak but you owe me twice much more. You owe me good friendships that you INTENTIONALLY ruined.


This is the last time, I swear. Spare the people I value the most. If I ever, hear you say a single word against him, or even say the first letter of his name, you're gonna be sorry. And you can count on it. 

Unofficially Yours...

So, okay! I am such a loser for watching this movie just recently. I guess being busy is my only excuse. hahaha! So I FINALLY watched it. It sucks that I wasn't able to watch it earlier. I literally cried while Cess (Angel Locsin) was spilling out the reason why she never believed in relationships and why she opted to get involved in relationships wherein there are no strings attached.

Fine, fine, fine. I feel her. And just like other movies that I've watched-- something borrowed and no strings attached, I have several movie lines that struck me THROUGH and THROUGH! :)

So if you haven't watched it, I suggest you STOP reading this and come back when you've watched it. Because this entry is such a spoiler! hahaha!

Favorite line #1: "Diba nga mas madali mag-'new life' kapag hindi ka attached?"
REASON: For me it was easier. Because you get the chance to find yourself and your place in the world ALONE. Without inhibitions or doubts that the NEW you or NEW life might affect or hurt anyone close to you.

FAVORITE LINE #2: "Seryoso ako. Promise." ; "Ingatan mo ang salitang yan ha - Promise... Huwag kang magpromise kung 'di mo kayang gawin."

FAVORITE LINE #3: "Unforgettable kasi wala ka ng hahanapin pang iba. Lahat ng kailangan mo, andun na.  Kaya kung idi-describe mo in one word - Perfect."

FAVORITE LINE #4:
"Cess, kontento ka na ba talaga sa ganito?"
"Anong ganito lang?"
"Yung ganito lang. Yung casual lang."
"Yung sex lang?"
"Hindi mo ba hinahanap maging in a relationship?"
"Hindi rin."
"Bakit?"
"Bakit naman ako kukuha ng ipu-pukpok sa ulo ko? Ang ending nun, hiwalayan lang. Di na uso 'yun ngayon." --AMEN! lol.

FAVORITE LINE #5:
"What if siya lang makakapag-pasaya sa'yo?"
"Kaya kong pasayahin ang sarili ko."
***i just have to say that this is just SSSSOOOOO ALEX!!!!***

FAVORITE LINE #6:"Hindi pwede yung sino-sino lang. Dapat yung the best."

FAVORITE LINE #7:
"Tama na."
"Alin?"
"Stop being so nice. Lalo mo akong pinahihirapan eh."
"Ganito lang naman ako dahil mahal kita. I'm sorry Cess. Alam kong wala sa usapan yun pero ito na yun eh. Mahal na mahal kita... Hindi ko na rin kaya magkunwari na naiintindihan ko pa kung ano ang meron sa atin. Hindi ko na gusto. Mamahalin kita ng buo. Aalagan kita Cess. Payagan mo lang ako. Pwede pa bang maging tayo?"

"Gustohin ko man, hindi ko kaya." -ehem! :)

FAVORITE LINE #8:
"Grabe. Wasak. Halos wala ng matira sa akin nu'n. Kahit respeto sa sarili ko, tinangay niya na rin 'yun eh. Ang tagal kong bumangon, gumapang... Pinipilit na tumayo. Nabuhay kung ano man yung natitira sa akin. Kaya sinabi ko na hindi na mauulit yun. Pero eto na naman, may isang tao na naman sa harap ko na hinihiling na mahalin ko. Gustong-gusto kitang mahalin Macky pero natatakot ako. Natatakot ako na baka muli akong masaktan. Wala ng matitira sa akin. Kung nakilala lang sana kita noon, 'nung kaya pa nito (puso). Kaya lang hindi na eh."

***I cried with Angel while she was saying this! Funny I know but this is how exactly I would explain myself. Maybe not word per word. But exactly the same thought.

FAVORITE LINE #9:
"Ako ang kaya ko lang gawin ay ang mahalin ka, ang maghintay sa'yo at umasang isang araw kakayanin mo ng magmahal ulit. Pero 'wag kang mag-alala, hindi kita pipilitin kasi naiintindihan kita."

FAVORITE LINE #10: "Naniniwala ako na may nakalaan na tao para sa bawat isa sa atin."

FAVORITE LINE #11: "Sa isang daang libong bagay na pinipilit, may isang bagay diyan na hindi mo kayang tanggihan."

FAVORITE LINE #12: "There is one final lesson: Higit ka pa sa isang daang libong bagay na pwede kong tanggihan sa buhay ko."

TOP THREE on my list are: *drum roll please!*

FAVORITE LINE #8, #12 and of course, #11 :)

Line #11 had me at HELLO! lol. I dont know if it was destiny or faith or just by chance that I watched this movie recently. It made me realize A LOT of things even more.

This movie cannot beat POPOY and BASHA though :) But I think it deserves a spot somewhere in my MIGGY and LAIDA, Edward and Bella, MIA and AUGUST, George and Andrew, Irene and Apollo list. :)

Ciao Bellas,
Alex

My Sister, My Enemy...

For the past 24 years of my life, I could say that last month was the very first time I ever said “I’m out of words to say”. Not because I didn’t have anything to say but maybe because any good word that I could think of are still not enough to describe how I felt and still feeling right now.

Last March 16, 2012, my family struggled and battled a life changing situation. Out of all the obstacles that our family has conquered, I guess this one’s one of the toughest. And though this was not the first time we faced a life and death situation, we went through the same roller coaster ride. True enough, nothing will ever prepare you for something as BIG as this.

My sister was diagnosed with a growing infection that started from above her uterus. Doctors keep on telling me that it did not started after she had her caesarean delivery, pfft! They underestimated my researching skills then. Well let’s not focus on that. I’ll save my arguments for court trials. J

To cut the story short, she went through another major operation. Those were the longest eight hours of my entire existence. As for everyone to know, I was the one outside the OR, anxiously waiting for the doctor to finally tell me she’s fine. My mom couldn’t go with her. She’s a pacemaker patient. My dad couldn’t also, his sugar might shoot up and he’d instantly faint. My brother was there, midway of the operation.

I couldn’t help myself but cry and just ask the BIG MAN up there to give my sister a chance to see her baby again. I’m saying this because the doctors immediately told me that she was in a “50-50 state” and they are doing a “lifesaving” operation. And when I heard those lines, everything went blank and I just couldn’t stop myself from crying. Mama and Papa were asking me what the doctor said and I just had to lie to them. I could not risk my parents’ health as well. I was thinking of Anikka, no one else but her. All I could remember was how my sister even waved back at me when the nurses took her to the DR to undergo a few tests. Then she was transferred straight to the OR.

Because her infection had spread out, her haemoglobin was continuously dropping. We had to ask the blood bank for 2 bags before the operation then another 2 after the operation. I understand that the blood bank could only give 1 bag for us and the other 3, we have to replace or ask someone to donate. And this was when I knew in my heart, my parents are good people – my family is GREAT. Immediately after my mom and dad started asking help from their CLOSEST friends, help came pouring out. And without any difficulties, we we’re able to get more than what was needed for my sister in less than 24 hours. That was when I was startled. Lost. Blank. My phones won’t stop beeping and help from friends we’re overwhelming.

I would like to thank EVERYONE who showed me and my family love, support and care. We owe you so much. And for EVERYONE who prayed and keeps on praying for my sister’s full recovery, thank you. My thank you’s might not be enough to express the feeling that me and my family feels. You have given back our big sister, my parents’ first born child, and most importantly, Anikka’s mama. That for me is more than enough already.

Let me share to you another tear jerking story: “My sister, my enemy”. Would you believe that this was how my sister sees me before? Hahaha! Growing up suffering from a big age gap, me and my sister would fight a lot. A LOT -- meaning every chance we get.

And there are times when I am guilty of cursing my sister. Hoping and wishing she’d be gone soon from our house. That was how worse our relationship was. But when she had to leave for her vacation in the States, I cried to death at the airport, surprisingly not letting go of my sister’s hand. During her entire stay there, we regularly send emails to each other and I enthusiastically tell her stories of my first year in college. I guess that was the time when we grew closer to each other. Going home and seeing my sister’s bed empty still made me sad though. And for about a week after she left for States, I couldn’t talk to her over the phone because I always ended up sobbing and crying.

When she got back, she planned one of the biggest milestones in my life – my debut. And I guess that made everyone see that we’re growing up very close to each other. Then we decided to keep just one big bed in our room since my closet was taking up a BIG space and her shoe racks couldn’t fit in there too. She’d tell me stories about her love life and she didn’t have any idea that their love story is my inspiration to finding the right guy for me. I was the very first in the family, to see her beautiful sparkling engagement ring.

Up until her wedding day, I stood beside her. I fixed her veil while saying “You make a very pretty bride Ate. Mukha kang prinsesa.” Then before my tears fell, I turned around and started marching towards the altar. And when she was marching, I had mixed emotions. I was happy for her at the same time sad because she might no longer be with me much and I’ll surely miss her -- exactly what I said during the maid of honor speech, plus a whole lot of crying. Hahaha!

Then one Saturday, a year after her wedding, while doing her make-up before she went to her friend’s wedding, they broke the news to me. In seven months, I’m officially a TITA. I broke down in tears again and hugged her very tight while telling her, “I’m so happy for you Ate.”

I stood by her throughout those nine whole months. Telling her stories every night while her little baby inside is listening too. We went to Lamaze class together giggling about our classmates startled because she was the only one without a husband. Then that faithful day came. She was about to give birth. Seeing her in pain made it very hard for me. But there was no other choice. It was either me or no one. And before her delivery date, people would always ask me, can you do it? You might suffer from trauma. Whatever people! I had to be there for my sister. So she gave birth to Anikka. My cutesy patootsy baby girl J And she is all worth it.

This is the story of me and my sister. I’m very proud of her winning piece “My sister, my enemy”. But most importantly, I’m proud of her and me. I’m proud that we grew very close to each other, fighting together and loving each other unconditionally. I could say that, we make our parents very proud.

For all its worth, I am very thankful for the BIG MAN up there who gave me and my sister everything that we have right now. I thank him for my family STRONGER than ever. I am now a believer that he will NEVER, EVER give you something that he knows you could not handle or endure. He is, in fact, an ALMIGHTY and LOVING father. The obstacle that I and my family went through was no joke. It was not easy. But again, it was all worth it.

In line with the Holy week, I would like this story to be told. Not just for the families, for friends, for siblings, but for everyone. This was for me, a huge test of my FAITH in Him. He indeed listens to your heart’s desires. And though there maybe times that he won’t give you exactly what you’ve asked for, NEVER doubt him. He just knows exactly what is right for you and he will grant it whole heartedly. Now I understand how Mama Mary felt while everyone was cursing Jesus while walking and carrying the cross. Because once in my life I felt that way too. It was more than excruciating to see someone you love so dearly in pain while you wait, watch and can’t do anything about it. Now I understand not just in context but deep in my heart the line “For God so loved the world that he gave his only son”. It is never EASY to give up someone you love.

I don’t want to sound so holy but during those hours, I couldn’t dare question him WHY. All I could say was, your will be done. Because for the past years, I always say that each time I pray. His will be done. And he never fails me. To be honest, there are A LOT of times that I would feel disappointed because he wouldn’t grant me what I prayed for. But I always see to it NEVER to regret or question him about it. Because I know in my heart, he had a reason why.

Maybe most of you would tell me, if you seriously believe in him, WHY NOT ASK HIM FOR A BOYFRIEND? I would be a hypocrite if I tell you it’s not one of my prayers. Crazy if I tell you it’s least of my priorities. But I always tell HIM about it. Most of the time, if I really like a guy and consider him as a steady boyfriend, I see to it to ask Him first. Not my parents’ opinion, but HIS’ first. Fortunately, out of the several guys I asked, he hasn’t approved any. And his answers came so fast – almost instant actually.

So for everyone who gets to read this, Thank you for being there for my family. I would forever be grateful for the love, care and support.

And for the rest of the week, I encourage everyone to spend it with your family, with your friends and NEVER forget the BIG MAN up there. Make this Holy Week count.

Ciao Bellas,
Alex

Of love and such.

As far as I could remember, the last time I wrote anything romantic about "LOVE" was back in 2009. The year when I got my heart so broken and on that same year, I tried over again and failed. Then that was it. I've been denying this ever since but to be honest, I've given up on love waaaay way back.

For many of my friends, it's a not a secret. And for the first time, in the last three years, I am openly talking about it. I've been the most vulnerable person. Most of you might say it doesn't seem like it but truth of the matter is, yes. I've changed a lot after that break-up. It has given me the chance to reinvent and make myself better at the same lose my strength to fall in love again. For someone who has soooo much love to give, I've always been a failure.

I had the hardest time moving on. And I guess everyone would agree to that. In movies you'd see girls crying there hearts out, not being able to eat, staring blankly on thin air  became a hobby, loss of sleep and even alcohol won't affect their body. I've been through all those and so much more. I could go by a day with just purely drinking beer and no food intake at all. All the while I thought things that happen in the movies are fictional. And my experience proved me wrong.

No words could ever explain how "HURT" feels. No book would ever be able to teach you how coping up should be. And no time is LONG enough for wounds to heal. It scars you forever and just like any other scar, it will be there. No matter how long it has been or how healed it is. It's within you, deep inside you.

And because I'm crazy like that, this entry will go AAAALLLLLL the way down to the last drop of detail. :) So, GOODLUCK for me. (DISCLAIMER: For the sake of the other people involved, I will not drop names, i hope you understand)

I GET YOU SHAMCEY SUPSUP!

A few months in my healing stage back in 2009, i met a BOY. Someone who gave me back a part of me that I lost in my previous break-up. He was, indeed, a prince charming. Literally and figuratively. EHEM! We started going out and for everyone to know, I TOOK THE CHANCE. I guess I was still hung-over by the previous love story that I thought to myself, GO AHEAD! So most of you might be asking, THEN WHAT ALEX? of course! It ended. Not as happily ever after as I expected it to be. I am admitting that I fell in love with someone who worships a different God. As what Shamcey told the universe, "If I have to change my religious belief, I will not marry the person I love because the first person that I love is God and He created me. And I have my faith, my principles and it what makes me who I am. And if that person loves me, he should love my God." It was not just a question of faith. It was a question of changing who I've been for the past years. Though things didn't work out between the two of us, he has never failed to remind me that he's thankful every January 24th because my creator gave the world one crazy curly catholic girl who loves inevitably.

And that was when I forgot to get my heart back to shape.

The next guys are, of course, guys I met from my friends who have been very supportive and eager to find me a new prince charming.

First sign of ENGINEER ADDICTION.
Mapua hunky had me kilig all over. He was sweet and all those. We almost had it. Then I snapped. I just woke up and I couldn't stand being sweet to him and him being sweet to me. Yes I know I'm crazy but that was how it all went honestly. I woke up and just shut my phone and wouldn't answer him at all 'til he called me one night, actually in the wee hours of the night, asking me what was wrong. Then knowing Alex, who loves sleeping, was rudely screaming on the phone telling him to leave her alone. THE END.

BREAK IT ON THE DANCE FLOOR.
then came wedding coordinator, who by the way, is a good guy. A very simple guy. My sister and brother in law liked him a lot because he was nice. But I guess I just woke up again one day realizing that I don't want to prolong the thing of us going out while i'm still in doubt about us. So one gimik night, we went to this club and that was when I broke the news to him that it's not going to work out and I'm sorry. THE END.

NEW WORLD, NEW MARKET.
Immediately after, I met a NEW GUY again. This one was different. He was already working like I was but I wasn't PHYSICALLY attracted to him. BUt he seemed nice and he was indeed a funny guy. This time, I was thinking, if I can't be physically attracted to him, why the hell was I fond of him? I had to find out. So we talked. We texted. Things like that again. And then, that's when I realized I'm not ready to settle down. Crazy as it seems but I just thought that, with all the heartaches and hardships I went through just to get to where I was on that exact moment, I had to choose the best among the rest. In short, I was thinking of considering dating other people in the mean time. And he wasn't up to that. And I understood. THE END

WHEN IT RAINS, IT FOURS.
I dated FOUR different guys all at the same time. So what? you're going to judge me now? hahaha! what was a girl, in her early twenties got to do? settle down and have kids? maybe for some but definitely not for me! :) and it got boring again for me and there wasn't anything special, so I ditched them. One by one. BBBBBAAAAAAADDDDDDDD Alex!!!!!!!

MY ALL-TIME FAVORITE.

Well there's a reason why he's my ALL TIME FAVORITE. Do you know that moment in your life where you're choosing which shoes or dress you want to wear for that special date? And you'd choose that one specific pair of shoes or clothing among the rest because among the many choices, it blends well on you? That's how he was. He was my shopping buddy, travel buddy, DRINKING buddy, dance floor partner, protector, my clown on PMS days, he was indeed more than just a boy-friend to me, he was my BESTfriend. He blended perfectly well on CRAZY selfish Alex. He fitted perfectly in my roller coaster ride. But things got out of hand and now he's promising FOREVER to another girl. THE END.

TOO GOOD FOR ME.

Have you ever met someone that made you feel like you're the worst person in the world because you keep on hurting him with things that you do? Well I have. He takes care of me, he's sweet, he's nice. He's everything a GIRL would ask for in a boyfie. But I am definitely not the right girl for him. THE END.

CHILDHOOD CRUSH.

I guess you've had your childhood sweetheart. I didn't. But I did have several admirers back then. And he was one of those who had persistently been asking my parents if I could go out on a date already. My parents, my family rather, welcomed him with open arms to our family and our home. And all the while I thought that it might be good since it would be easier already. But shit happens. Again, it happened. One sunday afternoon after hearing mass, I stared at him and suddenly thought to myself, IS THIS REALLY WHAT I WANTED? Someone who my parents love but I couldn't even have a good, FUN and sensible conversation with? I just had to end it right then and there.

HANG-OVER.

I was at my lowest that time and I held on to whoever would give me the feeling of security again because I was, unfortunately, longing for Mr. All time favorite. And HANG-OVER was at the wrong place and wrong time. And when I finally realized that he's not coming back, I had to stop my wishful thinking. I suddenly felt empty and sad. I felt all the hurt and I was no longer happy. So I had to stop and be fair.
 

GYM BUFF.
Was then also mending a broken heart. We found in each other the attention and time we both were longing for. However, I just knew that attention and time is not enough. And he was again, one of my EPIC fails.

WHEW. There are two things in my mind while I was writing this. People might hate me OR they might understand me a little bit more. This is not meant to bash all the guys I've mentioned. This is not even to uplift my ego. This is my way of "letting go". Last night while I was with good friends, drinking beer and sharing stories, I realized that maybe, I've been holding back myself for too long. Too long that even though I dont intend to hurt people's feelings, i UNINTENTIONALLY do. I've been protecting myself from all the hurt that might happen that I unintentionally push people away from me. People who might be the one I've been waiting for.

So for all the guys I've met, from the bottom of my heart, I'm SORRY for hurting you. And I'm sorry for letting you scar me and hurt me too. Shamcey boy, thank you for always remembering my birthday. And though we live different worlds now, thank you for making a little girl's fairytale dream come true. If not for you, I wouldn't still be waiting for another fairytale dream come true now.

For Mapua hunky and wedding coordinator, I'm glad that you guys found girls that are meant for you. I'm happy that we still keep in touch despite what happened and we get to just laugh about it now.

For NEW GUY, I haven't thanked you for being one of the most understanding person I've met. Thank you for... uhmm, just being you and keeping things easy though you were having a hard time with me already.

For the four guys, I'm happy now that ALL of you are happy. You don't just have gf's now, you have babies!LOL. And I'm just happy and thankful for everything you have taught me and thank you also for letting me touch your lives in any way I can.

For too good to be true, I know it was hard for you. I was crazy and you we're just three steps ahead of me. I heard about your new girlfriend and they said you perfectly blend well with each other. Which makes me even more happier. Thank you for all the sweet little things that you did for me and not to mention your EFFORTS in making me feel very special. Always remember what I said, you are the PERFECT guy. But I'm not the girl for you.

For Chilhood crush, it's awkward I know. Seeing me everytime you hang-out at our house with my brother. And I guess it's even more crazier once you see me hanging out with someone else. I've been avoiding that believe me. I've caused you pain already and I don't want to rub it more on your face. I've learned a lot from you and to be honest, I felt happy remembering US. Cause I took a chance, I took that risk of bringing our friendship to the next level. It just wasn't fitting in to what I need and want. And I thought that prolonging it would be more unfair to you, just like all those before you. Because I would be keeping you away from the possibility of meeting someone who actually is MEANT for you and not someone who's TRYING to be MEANT for you.

For GYM BUFF, I just couldn't stand being around you and be irritated because we can't TALK. You like spending time together but I just cannot appreciate the "together" feeling because silence kills me. We don't even have a SINGLE common interest. And though it was hard for me to admit that you're AGAIN, not the one for me, I had to. Because it was already heart breaking for me being with you.

For HANG OVER, thank you for being nice and sweet while we we're still going out. Thank you for accepting my friends and treating them as you own. I'm sorry for not telling you earlier what I was going through. Where my mind wanders sometimes and where my heart really was. I was hurt and I know it's not an excuse for me to use you to move on. I was, in fact, HUNG-OVER of Mr. All time favorite. I hope someday you'd get to find it in your heart to forgive me and move on.

And for MR. ALL TIME FAVORITE, you know that i'll never find someone like you. But I guess that's what life wanted me to learn from you - Take chances cause opportunities knock once. I'll always remember what you said, that "there's a place in you where my fingertips still rest, my kisses still linger, my whispers still echo and my face that reminds you of me. It's a place in you where a part of me will FOREVER be a part of you." If only I have met you when my heart can still say I'm ready. But things just didn't work out that way and maybe it's because destiny won't allow it. But through it all, thank you so much for everything.

I haven't really cleared it out in my head what I want and what I need to be able to take the risk, until last tuesday night. Sa lahat ng tinakbuhan ko ng mga gabing yun, kayo na talaga!!! It was the first time I ever regretted pushing someone close to me away. And you guys made me realize that it's okay for me to admit that I was wrong in pushing him away. It's okay to admit that you actually DID find someone who'd change everything. Someone who made you jump without hesistating. Someone you could actually get used to being with. Someone who made you feel something you haven't felt for the past years. Someone who would actually make you understand why things just wont work out with other guys. Why you decided to wait. Someone who'd actually make you understand that all the heartaches and pain you've been through actually led you to him. Someone who'd make you his CHOICE and not his option.

Now I know exactly what I want. I want to love. I want to fall and just wait for my wings to spread. If it doesn't, then I'll dust it off and try again. I don't want to have "what if's", i dont want to think that "it's impossible", i don't ever want to say "it's risky", I want to prove everyone that falling inlove is not "pointless", I want to give my heart, myself the chance to TRY. Then maybe, just maybe, I won't feel alone anymore. I want to be as brave as all my friends are who've been though so much but still standing strong, trying and trying.

Let this be a sign of me letting go. Of me moving forward. Of me CLAIMING that I will fall deeply inlove with him without thinking that it's pointless. Of me accepting the fact that YES he might hurt me but at least he is WORTH the pain. Of me taking all the FEAR and making it my strength to not HURT him or PUSH him away.

I now know what I NEED to be able to take the risk. I need him to hold my hand and be patient with me while I take my baby steps. I am nowhere near perfect. Nor am I in tip top shape in loving. But I... Kristeen Alexis Valenciano is WILLING to compromise and adjust. (OMG! did I just say that???) And I PROMISE, i won't INTENTIONALLY hurt you and throw tantrums just to push you away.

Ciao bellas,
Alex

Hitting two birds with one stone...

Hello everyone! I am soooo back :) REASON I was too sleepy to function last night. And the same happened to me tonight. I just woke up at around 2am from my 5 hours nap and now I can't go back to sleep :)

Good thing though 'cause I still owe you two more bazaar posts :) Okay here goes :)

Second on my list is the super sale bazaar at world trade center. Actually, I was a bit surprised that super sale bazaar wouldn't be at Rockwell because it usually is. Oh well, the good thing about this particular supersale bazaar is that a some of the proceeds will go to World Vision Ph. My family, my mom in particular, has been helping kids from World Vision PH. If you want to help out kids from provinces however you don't have time to visit them personally or volunteer in the activities, what you CAN do is sponsor for a child's education. It's actually really nice because it's affordable, easy to do, and you are secured that your donations will be allotted for your chosen child's education. Regularly, they would send you school report cards with the current picture of your sponsored child and the BONUS? The child will actually write you small notes, greeting cards, etc.

So knowing that some of the proceeds will go to world vision, I tagged along a few friends with me -- Khae, Chad, Dianne and Christian. So, yipee for World Vision :)

Tickets

Khae was making fun of me since I was busy looking at baby stuff. She'd joke around saying, "pipicture-an kita at lalagyan ng caption na SPOTTED: Alex buying baby stuff??" Well, typical Alex and Khae jokes. Anywoot, after several rounds, we decided to eat dinner somewhere then of course! Starbucks time! So we had dinner, then straight to Starbucks only to find out that it was midnight already! I guess you really dont notice the time much when you're having a great time. Guess what we did at Starbucks? We SERIOUSLY did some planning for our much awaited 2012 travel adventures.

Planning Mode: ON

A few hours later, sleepiness and tiredness kicked in, we decided to call it a day. On our way home, I asked her to take my outfit shots for me. YAY!!!!!!

Thank you Karren G for the outfit shots :)

So now, the last but definitely not the least on my list (that rhymes!) is... *drum roll* World Trade Center Christmas Bazaar! Every year, we (my mom, sis and I) make it as one of our christmas traditions to visit this bazaar. Although I must admit that it's crowded and its the type of bazaar where you can't really have an easy breezy shopping day, but it's really a nice place where you can do your Christmas shopping for gifts.

For only Php50.00 entrance fee, you can actually finish your entire list, stick to your Christmas budget and you get to see a lot of choices. Another good thing for us (my mom, sis and me) is that we can shop for gifts together because the stalls there cater almost ALL types of people and ages. If your budget is a bit on the high side, you can buy Rustan's products at a lower price compared to the usual mall price. You can buy Avent or goody products. If you're looking for something fashionable for a trendsetter friend, you can find it there too since some online shops are also there.

This year, I went there twice. A bit lesser as compared to the last few years though.

Among all the bazaars I went to, I guess these three are one of the nicest. Though I am planning to catch the Global Pinoy bazaar this year since I read nice feedback about it.

And since my sister loves me and supports me a lot, she was kind enough to take outfit photos for me. Apologies for the no make up look though since I was thinking of a very laid-back, bazaar-ready look.

I took her photo too since she loves her maxi dress outfit.

Whew! So that's just about it. In a few hours is my sister's baby shower so I better hit the sack now.

Til my next post!

Ciao Bellas,

Alex

Bazaar love triangle :)

Hello everyone!

Let me start off with an apology that my blog posts are somewhat outdated. After all, it's 2012 already. I just feel like I owe it to myself to at least post the pictures that I tried to save for the longest time and I owe it also to the friends who supported me in taking pictures and encouraged me to start blogging again.

Well for tonight and the coming nights, I thought of blogging about my bazaarS experience. Yes you heard it right. I am in love with bazaar shopping just as how much in love I am with online shopping. It's not just cheaper than mall price, it's fashionably updated, and of course, it's a time for you to bond with your friends. I also thought about it over and over again -- Bazaar shopping vs Mall shopping. Then I came into a conclusion: I can have best of both. I could still go mall shopping at the same time mix it with bazaar shopping. After all, fashion is about MAKING YOUR RULES work. OWN it.

Oh well, so there's gonna be 3 bazaars to post on my list hence the blog title. hehe!  But I might post just one every night. Depends on my capacity to stay awake. LOL. And I can only post one outfit on my lookbook page per night. Hype my looks there if you can too!

So first on my list is my Rockwell bazaar experience. I usually go there to visit online stores where I usually shop and also to meet new online sellers where I can also, again, SHOP.

One of the few things that I got from the bazaar are my pairs of suelas flats, good accessories from a shop that doesn't unfortunately sell online, my hot pink NYX matte lipstick from Digital Traincase and a few more accessories. Here are some:

Personalized Bracelet; Kidada-inspired bracelet

pink lippies from Digital Traincase

And of course, before I forget, my OUTFIT POST! I would like to give credits to my sister for taking this photo and also creating this outfit:

For a bazaar day, I chose to wear a comfy yet stylish kind of outfit. Sheer mustard top, shorts and flats! :)

That's just about it for now... 'Til my next post!

Ciao Bellas,

Alex

Japan-Manila mix: EPIC FAIL!

On my way to school, I always pass by the same street every single day and traffic will always be there no matter what time or wherever I am. I guess, as long as I'm still in the Philippines. Pfft! Every time it's traffic, its good to be in a place where your mind and eyes can go out and explore things. So one of my discoveries one traffic afternoon was this newly opened small resto along HV Dela Costa St. Salcedo Village in Makati. The place is called Manila Maki.

To be honest, upon entering the place, I would highly commend the artistic mind behind it. The place, was for me, fascinating. They used newspapers as wallpapers and the ceiling was high making it seem as if the place was very spacious. However, the crew then was not as welcoming as the place. Again, this is just based on my experience. You might have experienced something else but for me, it was quite disappointing. Knowing that they we're still on soft opening back then. Anyway, as excited as can be, I asked which dishes were their best sellers or highly recommended rather. Then I ordered the top four dishes. Upon arrival of our orders, BOY was I very happy. The presentation was really nice. It was plated well and they all look very yummy. So we started digging in. Being a fan of Japanese cuisine, I can't claim that I'm an expert but I could definitely say which is yummy from which is not. I was intrigued and excited all at the same time because this was Japanese cuisine infused with Filipino cuisine. The first bite I took was with their california Maki. Pardon me if I could not recall the exact name but here's how it looked like:

California Maki

Look how nice this is!

So there, after a few bites, well it tasted alright. Definitely not SUPERB but it was just right. Maybe I was expecting much or expecting a taste that is unexpectedly good. or something out of the ordinary taste. But there was just too little difference from the typical one. next that I tried was their salad. Again, i'm so sorry if I couldn't provide you with the exact name of the dish. i just wanted to forget the whole not-so-good slash not-so-bad experience.

Salad

Tempura

Tofu

Well, bite after bite, I realized that the sauce was made out of sesame oil. However, it was not a good feeling for someone to be eating a salad that's practically dripping with oil. Although the oil maybe less evil as compared to other dressings, I guess the amount of oil seasoned on the veggies we're a bit too much making it all soggy and soaked in oil.

And this was the last struck I guess. I was then, on diet that's why maybe I opted for mainly protein. I was heartbroken. The tempura was also soaking wet in oil. That was when I requested for a glass of cola. I usually could eat without the softdrinks rush or urge but this was different. I couldnt dare to take another bite again unless I wash out all the previous tastes and oil stuck in my palettes.

Before giving up on this resto, I tried the tofu we ordered. In all fairness, without the very thick and oily breadings, it was fabulous. Sinfully delicious as they say.

So here comes the bill and I just couldn't not bear that they charge that much. just for food that I couldn't even finish.

Overall, here's my rating: (5-highest; 1-lowest)
 Place- 5
 Crew/Quality of service- 3
 Food- 3
 Price- 3

Again, let me just say that this is based on MY experience.

And before I forget... OUTFIT POST! This is what I wore that day :) sexy, sleek, black and gray effect.

That's about it =)

Til my next post!

Ciao Bellas,

Alex

Reading became a HABIT...

I think my blog reading should be lessened. Less blog reading = Less unexpected spending. hahaha!



Well, this magazine is soooooo last month! hahaha! Its just now that I get to blog about my experience reading it. Oh well. So here goes..




As i opened my COSMOPOLITAN Magazine December 2011 issue, which was freshly delivered then since I opted to subscribe rather than going through the hassle of going to a store and buying it. The good thing about me reading a magazine is that I get to broaden my vocabulary, enhance my background and knowledge about things, and of course, i'm updated! So here's a sneak peak to this month's issue.

Cover Girl: Sarah Geronimo

Cover Girl: Sarah Geronimo

Articles that caught my attention.

Rayban Frames

Unfortunately the brother got that exact same glasses! boo-hooo! :P

Photos from the Cosmo Bachelor Bash 2011.

Raining HOT boys last September at World Trade Center :P

yummy pages =)

These are some of the pages I SHOULD skip :) (i'll munch on one of these maybe later :))

The good thing about this issue is that it does not just inform you, it HELPS you. It's like having your bestfriend with you wrapped in a magazine cover. LOL.
It's such a great feeling to be reading on things that INTERESTS you. And that's why i'm planning to get a new good book at Powerbooks maybe this week. Any suggestions? Well, gotta go now and research on a good book to read :)

Ciao Bellas,

Alex